I'm not yours and you're not mine. That's what I say to his dreaming face as I watch the shadows of his dark eyelashes dance by the light of a Tilley lamp. It's not the first lie I've told myself.When I was sixteen, I wanted to fly. I was going to take off like an angel from heaven and leave the muck and madness of Northern Ireland behind as I struck out across the west coast of Donegal heading straight for America. Nothing but the Land of Happy Ever After would do for me. It was him I blamed for clipping my wings. I fashioned a cage out of self-pity then and slipped it over my head like a boned corset to hold myself together and to lock him out. But hate cannot bind two people to each other for twenty-five years, no matter how many dark skies have to be weathered. Only love can do that. It's the first truth I've told myself.