When Carol Lee's cherished god-daughter Emma descended into a long and frightening battle with Anorexia, Carol found herself at a loss to know quite what to do. Faced with a confusing assortment of perspectives, theories and treatments from the medical and psychiatric professions, there seemed to be little agreement regarding this perplexing, voracious and sometimes fatal illness. 'adopted me in a London pub when she two and three quarters'. Carol tells of her quest to understand and help Emma, weaving back and forth in time creating a picture of Emma's childhood and describing her long battle with anorexia; her time spent in a secure unit, the secrecy and fury that forever lurked beneath the fragile surface and the infuriating, heartbreaking but ultimately life-saving relationship that they share.