Some things he wishes he'd never written ... For the first time in memory, bestselling author Ian Merchant can't find even a single word to write. Recently rocked by a powerful spiritual encounter, he is torn by turmoil within and without. Everyone around him, including his wife, Rebecca, agrees that he's changed, but has he indeed become a "new creature"? How is he to build a life of faith when the sins of his past line the bookshelves of America?