When the New York Post published Tina Traster's essay about her difficulty bonding with her daughter, Julia, whom she and her husband had adopted from a Siberian orphanage, the seasoned journalist was shocked and overwhelmed by the response, both empathetic and angry. In this frank and honest memoir, Traster tells her full foreign-adoption story, from dealing with the bleak landscape and the inscrutable and withholding adoption handlers in Siberia, to her feelings of inexperience and ambivalence at being a new mother in her early forties, to her growing realization over months then years that.